Wednesday, November 11, 2009

First Chemo Treatment

Well........Last Monday I started my first chemotherapy treatment. To tell you the truth most of it was a blur. I remember going into the hospital Monday morning really really early, once there they prepped me to put in the port. After I woke up from the "surgery," They admitted me to the hospital and started chemo. After that like I said was a big blur. I came home Thursday and was feeling REALLY ICKY, from stomach pain to muscle pain and much more. I felt bad for about three days. One night I had just one of those nights where every thing was just falling apart, so I decided to pray and I just started to cry and I wasn't even sure why, (most likely just the whole situation in general) but the weirdest thing happened after I prayed it was like my total my mind set changed I just felt content with every thing. It was amazing. I knew at that moment God was in the room, and I was just so happy I couldn't sleep Because I didn't want it to end. It was the weirdest and coolest thing ever. God is the BEST comforter ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so once again thank you for the love and support.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Getting ready

Hey peoples.....Sorry its been awhile. Not much has happened with the cancer over the past week or two. Until now tomorrow they are putting in the port (an object that the doctors use to have access to my nearest artery), I am also starting chemotherapy treatments tomorrow evening. I will be in the hospital until Thursday than I am free to go home. To tell you the truth I'm nervous, but not as nervous as I thought I'd be. God has really help me in that way. I know that God is going to use me in some way, which I'm happy and scared about. Happy because I know God is awsome and He can use me too do anything, which is pretty amazing considering I'm a stupid teenager, and I am scared because what if I screw it up. Right now, I am at some sort of strange peace because I know that ALOT of people are praying for me, and its kind of cool because some people you thought didn't really care or notice anything can be one of your biggest supporters. I think all this love and support is harder to comprehend then the concept of cancer. I've already been blessed through this time and its just beginning. Well got to go finish packing and getting ready. Leaving in four hours (yay). Until next time.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

More Tests

Well, yesterday, as some of you know, I had a doctors appointment. This was NOT a fun day. The day started very early, because I was driving home from my mini-vacation that I had over the week end. So once I got home we left right away to my doctors appointment all the way in Chicago, that was a hour and fifteen minute drive just to get there. Than once I got there I met Dr. Hayden (who's very nice,) he told me that I had to have a biopsy, which at the time I thought was no big deal, than he gave me an option concerning the biopsy, I could either stay over night and have a surgical biopsy were they put me to sleep or I could do it right in the office where I was wide awake, and I wouldn't have to stay over night. Since I had just gotten home I really had no desire to stay over night so I decided to just do it in the office. So they prepped my knee and put a numbing shot in my knee, which didn't really help at all, and they started pulling out pieces of the soft tissue. It was one of the worst pains I had ever felt in my entire life......I had no Idea how bad it would hurt, but thank God they got what they wanted, and I don't have to do it again. Next I had to do a CT scan which thankfully didn't hurt one bit!
Now today I got the results to the biopsy and the CT scan....I'm in a stage two out of four cancer, and they will most likely do chemotherapy over radiation. I will have chemo for so many months than they will do surgery to remove the bone that's been affected than they'll do chemo again. I also found out that the cancer is not in my lungs, which is wonderful. The last thing we found out about was that my cancer is very strong at this point. Tomorrow I will have another doctors appointment with an oncologist, he will tell me home many treatments I'll need and all that stuff, and I might have a bone scan which will tell if the cancer spread to any other bones. Thanks to God for doctors, family members, Church family, prayers, and for this cancer! Until next time

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

A normal day

Well today was somewhat of a normal day. The pain wasn't too bad....and I was able to get some stuff done such as: school, playing with my new puppy, practicing the violin, going to church, etc. When I got to church that night for soul-winning (which is where my youth group goes door-to-door telling people about Jesus and how He died for all of us) I was bombarded with people giving me hugs,and telling me that they loved me and would do any thing I needed. Some offered to take me to doctors appointments, and some invited me over if I ever wanted to get out of the house, but the nicest thing that people said to me was that they were praying for me! I know it may sound likes its not that big of a deal for some people, but for me that's the best thing any one could do for me during this time, and through out my life. I would like to just personally thank all of you who have taken the time to pray for my family and me, that is the only thing that I will ever need through this whole experience.....So thank you from the bottom to the top of my heart!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Finding out!

Two weeks ago I started having minor pain right above my knee. For the first couple days I figured I just bent it wrong or I pulled a muscle, But a few days later I couldn't bend it for long periods of time. I had thought maybe it had to do with the chiropractic work on my back that had started around the same time as the pain in my knee. So I talked to my chiropractor to see if she could fix it. She took a couple X-rays....but unfortunately she did not have a diagnosis for my problem. One morning I woke up and I couldn't stand on it, or walk on came to such a severe pain that my parents took me to the Emergency a local hospital. They took more X-rays...and they also took a blood test, and gave me a brace for me knee. So I left the Hospital that night with still no answers to my problem. The day after that (which was Sunday) I felt fine. The brace had helped and I was able to walk and go to church. I was so happy, and I had thought that this brace might have been all I needed to help my knee heal! The following Monday I had a doctors appointment with one of my family doctors......where I found out that there was a chance that I could have osteo sarcoma....which is a cancer of the bone....I wasn't really sure how to react, but something came over me and I just broke down right there in the Doctors office....Just thinking of all the things I wanted to do in the next couple of years. It just hit me that I might not be able to do these My mother and I did the best thing that could have been done we both took a couple of minutes and prayed....I have to admit it was very hard to pray then.....because all I thought about was me and myself and my life....Than I realized at that moment that this had nothing to do with me or mylife but just simply what God wants for me and my life, and at that moment I could feel the comfort from the comforter Himself....Yes, I know it sounds corny but that's the only way I can say it in words......and later I found out that I did have cancer......When I found out for sure it really didn't hit me that I actually have cancer (it still hasn't)...I mean you always think of it as a possibility, but you never think it will actually happen........that night at about one in the morning I had another break down just crying and asking God "why me" (as I'm sure every one has asked in their life time).Than almost instantly Psalms 23:1 popped into my head...and I said it over and over until I fell asleep.....the next day (which is today) I had an appointment with another doctor....which couldn't really help much...all he really found out was that the cancer/ tumor is also in the bone....(which is not good)........ so that's all I know for now!......Please Pray for me as this process continues!!!