Wednesday, November 11, 2009

First Chemo Treatment

Well........Last Monday I started my first chemotherapy treatment. To tell you the truth most of it was a blur. I remember going into the hospital Monday morning really really early, once there they prepped me to put in the port. After I woke up from the "surgery," They admitted me to the hospital and started chemo. After that like I said was a big blur. I came home Thursday and was feeling REALLY ICKY, from stomach pain to muscle pain and much more. I felt bad for about three days. One night I had just one of those nights where every thing was just falling apart, so I decided to pray and I just started to cry and I wasn't even sure why, (most likely just the whole situation in general) but the weirdest thing happened after I prayed it was like my total my mind set changed I just felt content with every thing. It was amazing. I knew at that moment God was in the room, and I was just so happy I couldn't sleep Because I didn't want it to end. It was the weirdest and coolest thing ever. God is the BEST comforter ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so once again thank you for the love and support.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Getting ready

Hey peoples.....Sorry its been awhile. Not much has happened with the cancer over the past week or two. Until now tomorrow they are putting in the port (an object that the doctors use to have access to my nearest artery), I am also starting chemotherapy treatments tomorrow evening. I will be in the hospital until Thursday than I am free to go home. To tell you the truth I'm nervous, but not as nervous as I thought I'd be. God has really help me in that way. I know that God is going to use me in some way, which I'm happy and scared about. Happy because I know God is awsome and He can use me too do anything, which is pretty amazing considering I'm a stupid teenager, and I am scared because what if I screw it up. Right now, I am at some sort of strange peace because I know that ALOT of people are praying for me, and its kind of cool because some people you thought didn't really care or notice anything can be one of your biggest supporters. I think all this love and support is harder to comprehend then the concept of cancer. I've already been blessed through this time and its just beginning. Well got to go finish packing and getting ready. Leaving in four hours (yay). Until next time.