Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Two weeks ago I started having minor pain right above my knee. For the first couple days I figured I just bent it wrong or I pulled a muscle, But a few days later I couldn't bend it for long periods of time. I had thought maybe it had to do with the chiropractic work on my back that had started around the same time as the pain in my knee. So I talked to my chiropractor to see if she could fix it. She took a couple X-rays....but unfortunately she did not have a diagnosis for my problem. One morning I woke up and I couldn't stand on it, or walk on it...it came to such a severe pain that my parents took me to the Emergency room....at a local hospital. They took more X-rays...and they also took a blood test, and gave me a brace for me knee. So I left the Hospital that night with still no answers to my problem. The day after that (which was Sunday) I felt fine. The brace had helped and I was able to walk and go to church. I was so happy, and I had thought that this brace might have been all I needed to help my knee heal! The following Monday I had a doctors appointment with one of my family doctors......where I found out that there was a chance that I could have osteo sarcoma....which is a cancer of the bone....I wasn't really sure how to react, but something came over me and I just broke down right there in the Doctors office....Just thinking of all the things I wanted to do in the next couple of years. It just hit me that I might not be able to do these things.....so My mother and I did the best thing that could have been done we both took a couple of minutes and prayed....I have to admit it was very hard to pray then.....because all I thought about was me and myself and my life....Than I realized at that moment that this had nothing to do with me or mylife but just simply what God wants for me and my life, and at that moment I could feel the comfort from the comforter Himself....Yes, I know it sounds corny but that's the only way I can say it in words......and later I found out that I did have cancer......When I found out for sure it really didn't hit me that I actually have cancer (it still hasn't)...I mean you always think of it as a possibility, but you never think it will actually happen........that night at about one in the morning I had another break down just crying and asking God "why me" (as I'm sure every one has asked in their life time).Than almost instantly Psalms 23:1 popped into my head...and I said it over and over until I fell asleep.....the next day (which is today) I had an appointment with another doctor....which couldn't really help much...all he really found out was that the cancer/ tumor is also in the bone....(which is not good)........ so that's all I know for now!......Please Pray for me as this process continues!!!